Monday Again

Well, it's Monday again here in Texas. I haven't blogged since Thursday for several reasons: husband had a four day weekend, I had a cold, and I had to relax. My husband is back to work, the cold is gone, and no more relaxation for me. We had a good weekend. Thursday afternoon we went to a bbq with some of J's friends. Friday, we met Meloy at a park and walked Molly and Emily. Then he came back to our house and I cooked pulled pork sandwiches with root beer sauce. It was a hit with the boys. Saturday was stormy so we declared it "do nothing!" day. And that's exactly what we did. We watched two whole discs of Lost. How sad are we? Sunday we went to church, heard a great message, came home, took naps, and I headed out for my first night of Bible Study. This is a new church for me and it's huge. I've been struggling with feeling like a nobody there. It can be so impersonal. But I decided not to give up on it and what better way to get to know people than through a Beth Moore study? I'm serious when I say the woman is my hero. I just love all of her stuff. I'm currently halfway through her "So Long Insecurity" book and i'm convinced she wrote it about me. A friend of mine so graciously went with me not knowing what she was getting in to. I am so glad that she went though. It will be good time for us to make friends and strengthen our existing friendship. I can't wait to see what the Lord does through this. Part of me is scared to take the journey and to let go of things, but the cost of what i'm holding on to is absolutely not worth the possibility of what I could have if I will just let go of it. I owe it to myself to dig in, take a deep breath, and let go. Honestly, though, I feel a bit skeptical. I've heard testimonies and how wonderful this study is but, seriously, how many retreats have I gone to and studies have I done where I leave feeling absolutely sure i'll succeed? Too many to count. And then what happens? I fall back into the pit AGAIN. Again, again, again. Beth says that this can be the end of the agains. I'm going to muster up enough faith to believe that. Maybe if I believe it, it will happen.
Tonight, I made beef stroganoff and sweet potato pie with streusel topping. I wasn't crazy about the stroganoff but J loved it. I find that I'm not enjoying the food I cook most of the time. I wonder if anyone else experiences that.
The military ball is Wednesday and of course, I've waited until the last minute to find something to wear. Sweet friend, Keri is coming over tomorrow to keep Emily so I can run around and find a dress. I hope. I think this might be our first date since our honeymoon. Oh, and we forgot about our one month anniversary. Oh well. I suppose there will plenty more of those ahead. :) The dishes are done, Emily's asleep, and now it's our bedtime. Goodnight all.